Sunday, June 14

Home Again

The kids & I got back late Thursday night. The drive was OK until we hit about 75 miles outside of our home. It started raining and hailing super hard. I was so surprised with the hailing. I've never been in a hail storm. But it was only like that for about 5 minutes. I thought the people who were pulling over to sit out the hail were cRaZy! I wouldn't want to sit there on the side of the road and let my car get pummeled with hail! Matt left Saturday for some training, so our time was short, but sweet.

We've been dealing with some stuff lately, and we are finally at a place where we are working through and growing stronger. From what I've read, what we are going through is not uncommon. Just usual marriage & parenting woes. At times it felt overwhelming and like we were not going to get through. Like we didn't even want to get through. But we do. We love each other and our children and honestly, it's not like we were/are facing serious problems like adultery, addictions, etc. That being said, sometiems it does feel like what we are dealing with is the end. I'm glad for the time we spent apart while I was out of town. It gave each of us time to reflect and think about where we want this thing called marriage to go. I even think that the next few weeks that we'll spend apart will stregnthen us and our desire to make it work.

Of course, I have also been praying for strength and guidance. I've also been praying for Matt. I finally saw my prayers working when he texted me last night after landing saying he is not going to fight with me anymore. At times, I felt like all he wanted to do was fight and actually talk about it and resolve. I no longer feel that pain, and yes it hurt. Is everything perfect and resolved? No, of course not. Is it ever?! Marriage, ours included, is an ongoing process. It is a commitment to learn and grow with each other. Marriage is getting through those difficult times and knowing that hard times will return. I'm happy that we are on the mend, that we are willing to work for our love and know that no, it does not always come easy. I have no doubt that we will face some more fights, espeically in the months leading up to his trip. But knowing this will prepare me to handle them a little more gracefully (I pray).

4"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails." 1Corinthians 13:4-8 (NIV)

1 comment:

Cortney said...

Believe me when I say are not alone! Being a husband/wife and parents to 2 children is hard, especially with how often the guys are gone. Sometimes I think it feels like it is worse since I stay home and can never "escape" parenting (if that makes sense). I am praying for you guys, God put you two together for a reason and you are seeing that now! I wish we lived closer so I could give you a hug!!!


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